“It was time to heal. I had to stop creating a life that I could not live. It was time for the pain and suffering to stop. There was too much pain. I will die if the pain continues. Why does my life keep ending up in the same place? Abusive marriages, divorces, lawyers, legal suits – people in my life that had alcoholism, mental illness and abusive behavior, all telling me that I am the problem. Why did I keep creating and recreating everything I did not want and vowed not to have in my life? In the process of the healing – soul searching – reading of books – discussing – studying – therapy; seemingly insignificant scenes from my childhood kept entering my mind. The scenes were overpowering me, forcing me to look at and relive the feelings that I was having at the time. I began writing down the stories and discovered very meaningful messages that I was given as a child, messages that imprinted me and shaped my life’s existence. These scenes and the feelings they created caused me to experience a repetitive pattern. It did not matter if the imprints were intended to create this pattern, only that it was the pattern it created in me. Until I was genuinely ready and able to look at my imprints and beliefs, where they came from and release them – the pattern would remain.” Negative imprints, beliefs, thinking and emotions cause a great deal of mental, emotional and physical distress. Negative thoughts and worry sink deep and can control your life. There is power in how you perceive your past, your relation to it and your world. Awareness of how your past affects and guides will help stop the vicious cycle ‘Daddy Throws Me in the Air’ is a journey through childhood memories to awareness. It includes a process to assist in releasing negative imprints and beliefs.
Ayn Dillard’s Daddy Throws Me in the Air is an inspirational memoir and self-help book that is a must read for all. In it, she recounts her troubled childhood and the vicious cycle of abusive marriages, divorces, lawyers, legal suits, and the people in her life that had alcoholism, mental illness and abusive behavior, all telling her that she was the one with the problem. When in reality it was all due to the negative imprints and the negative behavior of others that shaped her life.
As an adult Ayn searched for answers in every way possible. Her process of healing included therapy, reading books and many other modes of searching for healing. When she began to recall messages and scenes from her childhood she decided to write them down. Thus begins her story as she was forced to relive her memories and feel all the emotions that came with them and then began to release them.
Daddy Throws Me in the Air is a poignant and inspirational look at one woman’s struggle to heal herself from her past. Ayn Dillard stresses the fact that we all have had imprints, good and bad that shape us as adults. And by recalling and taking a close look at our childhood memories we can all begin to become aware and understand why we are the way we are and why we keep doing the same negative behaviors over and over. And finally, by becoming aware and reliving our past emotions we can be healed with God’s help.
I was fully captivated by Daddy Throws Me in the Air: Remembering Childhood. It was like riding a wild ride while reading her accounts of various childhood experiences. These things really touched me and I could really relate. We cannot allow others to project their fears and negative emotions upon us. I fully empathized with Ayn and found myself literally crying many times at the pain and suffering she endured.
But not all hope was lost, as Ayn sought out help and was able to overcome her bad childhood imprints and memories and turn sadness, depression and repeated negative behaviors around. She now lives a life full of peace and joy with, mainly, the help of God.
This is a must read memoir and self-help book for anyone that struggles in life. Ayn states that our adult lives are a reflection of the imprints that were put upon us a children and we can overcome them and live a happy life.
Daddy Throws Me in the Air is also witty and fun to read even though it is sad. Ayn Dillard has a way with words that draws readers in and causes them to want to read on to the end. The characters have a life of their own and their stories are written in two to three page accounts. This book is brilliant and beautiful – filled with hope.
Self-Awareness is one of the keys to the fulfillment of a happy life. Ayn states that we must forgive, learn to love ourselves, let go of the past and accept the things we cannot change. Ayn Dillard is an expressive, excellent writer and her story will help many. There is a section in the book that will help readers to evaluate their own lives and childhoods and begin the healing process. This is one book that I will be reading again. Chick Lit Cafe highly recommends it to all readers because we all have issues that need dealing with and that stem from our childhoods. Ayn’s book is a highly effective shortcut to years of intense therapy. This book helped me immensely and I thank Ayn Dillard for following her calling to write it.